Ben: God, I love this cd.
"One broken bottle. And one broken man drenched in a bourbon perfume."
Me: Yeah, he speaks the truth. It's kind of a sad cd though, don't you think? He's a great artist. But this entire cd is about drinking. He must have lived a sad life."
Ben: Yeah, this cd is like my life story.
"Well I fell off track somewhere along the way .Chained all my dreams to a mirror and a razor blade. Momma said I guess its just a part of growing up. And I’ve spent my last five years trying to straighten up"
Ben: So what do you want to do tonight?
Me: I don't know. Let's go bowling.
Ben: Nah, I don't want to go bowling.
Me: Why not? It'll be fun.
Ben: Maybe tomorrow. Hey, I need to swing by the store.
Me: What store?
Ben: The liquor store.
Silence. Anger. Frustration. Insecurities. Blame. Guilt. Anger. Frustration. Insecurities. Blame. Guilt. Anger. Silence.
"Its a sticky situation that i've gotten myself into. Same old obligation has got me torn between this ole bottle and you. And i'll probably choose the drinking so you're probably gonna pack your bags. Spend a few lonely hours thinking before you.. before you come running back. Beggin me to be just a little stronger. To stay sober longer. Not to let you down. Must these demons haunt me and lay their wicked burdens on me? Lord wont you show me how to put the bottle down?"
Dane: Where's my Daddy?
Me: He had to run in the store for a minute.
Dane: To get beer?
Me: No hunny. He just needed to get a drink.
Dane: Oh, okay momma.
"Another bourbon vacation has got me crawling on the floor. And i'm in no condition to say a word when she comes walking through the door. The color starts fading when I hear her crying up and down the hall. As iIdrift away i can feel her praying saying lord will you show him heaven after all the hell he's been through?
Can I be a little stronger and not make her wonder when im going to let her down? Must these demons haunt me and lay their wicked burdens on me and lord wont you show me how to put the bottle down? "
Ben walks back to the car.
Ben: Okay, I'm ready. Let's go home. I'm ready for a drink! Seriously, this is a great cd.
Me: Yeah.
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((hugs)).
Britt ... this broke my heart. I love you and things are already beginning to change. Hang on ... you'll make it.
I'm sorry honey, I really hope things turn around.
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